I’d always heard that motherhood tends to bring your selfishness, imperfections, and struggles to the surface. Oh how I understand that now. There have been countless times in the last 9 months that I’ve had to side bar even my tiniest of desires. I didn’t realize how accustomed I was to doing things pretty much whenever I wanted before becoming a mom. It’s not easy, learning to be selfless and offering up your wants for the good of another. Especially when that other doesn’t understand that mama just needs a minute.
I’ve had to learn how to set aside a snack, a hot cup of coffee, and my laptop or phone. I just tell myself this new mantra, “It’s not going anywhere.” That slice of delicious cheesecake that you’ve been craving all day and just took the first bite of can go back in the fridge for later. That fresh cup of joe can be reheated or turned into iced coffee. Your email, Facebook updates, and even half written blog posts aren’t going to disappear if you have to unplug till nap time. It’s not going anywhere.
But this baby girl who seeks your attention and care, she’s growing up way too quickly already. She can’t wait till it’s convenient for you to love her. She won’t always want to climb into your lap or play peek-a-boo on the bed. She won’t always squeal with delight when you make faces with her in the mirror. It’s ok to put down that phone sometimes, even if you’re just trying to capture the perfect photo or an adorable video to send to grandma. And you’ve already learned that dirty diapers can’t wait long.
I’m reminded of that famous sweet poem by Ruth Hulburt Hamilton…
“The cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow
But children grow up as I’ve learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down cobwebs; Dust go to sleep!
I’m rocking my baby and babies don’t keep.”
This beautiful time with your baby is going somewhere. It’s going somewhere fast. Don’t let it slip by for the things that aren’t going anywhere.